Thanks for the lemons for my lemonade!

At the end of a horrible day, all I needed to hear was my dad's assurance : "I am proud of you, no matter what." It's not the end but rather a wonderful beginning to a story that is yet to be told. Life does not have to be lived on shortcommings. There is always hope in Him. Tibayan lang yan ng loob. Will you rise up, pick up your mat and follow Him? Good night everyone. Start of a new day, start of a new life at dawn.

Desires of the heart

I just had breakfast with my old friend, Micky. After dawnwatch, we went to Delifrance. We had some catching up to do and basically we talked about relationships and love (the usual girl conversation).

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While I was listening to her, it made me think about my personal issues as well. It's funny because the theme of my whole morning was about matters of the heart.The events of the past 4 hours intertwined with each other. First, Poch Relucio's message revolved around Psalm 37:4, "Delight yourself in the Lord and He will give you the desires of your heart." He made us realize our deepest desires and if these were in line with God's plan in our lives. We really don't know what His plans for us are, but more or less, we have an idea of what He wants us to do. Some way or another, our heartstrings are connected to His. We're His children, He already knows how we feel even before we tell Him and we in turn already know the heart of our God if we are faithful to the reading of His word. If I can recall it right, his points were: - Know your God - Examine your Heart and, - Yield to God's will I admit my prayers would revolve on three main things: the success and good health of my parents, my consistency in my relationship with God and to be faithful in waiting for His blessings to unfold. Honestly, there are two blessings I have been asking God for - a stable career and a honest to goodness godly relationship with someone. I am not even ashamed to admit that. But I know the latter part if far from happening because it's not yet time. But I know God is faithful to His promises. I know it may come in a different package at a different time but I know He knows what's best for me. It's really hard to mouth such words as it is hard believing them but I do pray that my faith will not falter. Going back to Micky's story, it made me realize that sometimes it is easier to pursue a non-believer. It's because you know that God is also speaking to Him; thing is sometimes you know what He is telling him and oftentimes you don't. Also, we girls must take good care of such guys because they are men of God. We must be careful of our words and actions and see to it that they won't stumble because of us. It's really hard to be above reproach at times, especially to a christian. Like you, they already have set standards that are sometimes hard to attain. I have been through different issues with different non-believers and though I had the time of my life, I still felt incomplete. What am I trying to say? I got lost in my own train of thought hehe. Basically, what I am saying is that I am trying to move on from that bondage. I am patiently waiting for the right time and the right person. It's just hard to be in an environment where you are highly encouraged to attach yourself to the next possible mate.It is also the same with waiting for the right job! as my friends are already earning their own salary, it results to me doubting God's timing. But I am really praying for God's strength and will for my life. He deserves the utmost Glory and obedience no matter how impossible it is. I love my, Lord. I want to please Him with all that I am, no matter how painful it is. Micky opened my eyes to stay faithful to Him. Sayang, I missed the opportunity to tell her that. I know it won't be long till I actually write about my first job here. Till then, this is my story but it is far from being finished yet. It's only just beginning! Besides, I am only 21 years old. I will leave you with this song. It's Muli by Bamboo and I truly loved the melody, the lyrics and the video! Micky let me watch this kanina at the Jzone office while waiting for my ride home. Enjoy!

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Have a pleasant morning, everyone.

Lemonade

Things did not turn out the way I want them to. I just felt so low awhile ago but this song lightened my mood. It came to me in the most unique package as I found myself watching a tribute to a former batchmate who died a year ago. The video made me smile as I got to see her smiling face again. With a collage of pictures was this song that I just can't help listening to. Hope you'll enjoy it just like I did.

lemonade - chris rice and I saw this video from the same singer haha. Cute!

Some people

just CAN'Tfollow directions. Sadly, it sometimes includes me but anyway, I just got pissed of A LITTLE today. I was fixing our dinner for later. My d-group's coming over and praise God for that! I was busy in the kitchen and I truly appreciate our help for being available to help me with the preparations. The thing with me is that I love doing everything - from the food preparations to the actual cooking and the washing of the dishes haha. Abnormal. I love to rely solely on myself. Ayon, may kapalpakan nga, like I envisioned. Simple instruction lang, she was not able to follow. Well actually, I don't want to blame her naman, I know she was just trying to help. I guess nagkaroon lang talaga kami ng miscommunication. So there, I got really pissed pero I am not the kind of person who bursts into anger. Instead, I took a deep breath and cried a little haha. I couldn't let it out kasi, I just didn't want to have that bad image. So ayon. I just let it pass and make use of what was already in front of me. Whooo.Effective pala yun!When you're on the verge of bursting, just take a number deep breaths pero kung hindi mo talaga matiis! go for it! haha kidding. Thank God I did not let out my emotions. That will be something!! I have never seen myself really angry. So I just hope nobody tests me in that area, I can really be unpredictable. I haven't seen that side of me yet. Major casualties: Na-overcook yung sides ng brownies! ang hirap tangalin sa pan! rarr. Kulang yung ulam! I need to rush to Tiendesitas to buy Barbecue. Minor casualties:the usual cuts and burns! haha. I am an accident prone area but I am used to it haha. ANG SAKIT!haha yun lang. Parang baliktad! hahaha

Funneh Photo of the Day! Check out Mariah Carey's Eminem haha! Ang pagkakaalam ko kasi, walang goateee si Eminem! haha. She looks more like Fred Durst, don't you think? Fashion icon of the day Rachel Bilson!! If I were given a chance to be in the shoes of any celebrity for a day! it would be her!! Can I be you, Rachel?? Oh and Lauren Conrad!! My happy song for the day.

Gravity - John Mayer John Mayer is Love. I would love to be serenaded with his songs. I'm Out. Time for more serious business. By the way, I am a purple child haha!

Lies vs. Truth

I just finished my homework for our d-group discussion tomorrow and I just could not help but share what I have learned. Jo instructed us to list some of the lies that we have come to believe and counteract it with verses from the bible. Here are some of the lies I have been imprisoned to and the verses I have come to find as bullets for my weapons in battle: 1)Fear of being different; fear of living my faith and being unpopular as a result of this

2 Timothy 1:7 “For God did not give us a spirit of timidity but a spirit of power, of love and of self-discipline.” (NIV) “God doesn’t want us to be shy with His gifts, but bold and loving and sensible.” (The Message)

2)Worry and waiting about things that have not yet been revealed

Mark 11:24 “Therefore I tell you, whatever you ask for in prayer, believe that you have received it and it will be yours.” (NIV) It’s amazing that it does not say “WHEN YOU RECEIVE” instead, is states “YOU HAVE RECEIVED”. We really need to claim it by faith, that God is a ‘Rewarder’ of all things. “That’s why I urge you to pray absolutely everything, ranging from small to large. Include everything as you embrace this God-life, and you’ll get God’s everything (The Message). Note that with God there are no such things as shallow issues or too complicated problems. Present anything and absolutely EVERYTHING to Him and He will bear ALL WITH YOU. YOU ARE NOT ALONE. WE ARE NOT ALONE.

3)Being hunted by the past hurts and consequences

1 John 1:9 “If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness.” (NIV) “If we admit our sins- make a clean breast of them – he won’t let us down; he’ll be true to himself. He’ll forgive our sins and purge us of all wrongdoing.” (The Message)

There are more actually but I am really sleepy. I just wanted to share a few. Maybe I can share more tomorrow. Lastly, I did not intend to find this but I did. I came across one of my high school batchmate's original composition!! Dates back to senior year!! This girl is so talented! I knew she will go this far!! Go Liz!Ang dami kong naalala sa song na toh. It was a year full of successful and unsuccessful achievements! 4th year...a bittersweet year for me. It was the year when I first gave my heart away hahaha. My very first childhood relationship. Anyway, there's no use reminiscing about that now.Not ever.

kahapon - liz lorenzo Gosh. I just realized how busy my day will be tomorrow!! Re-editing my tita's files. Then preparing food for my d-group and then the d-group itself! why am I still up? gah. I can do this.

KK. Pleasant dreams!