Friday, July 17, 2009

Dear reader,

my day ended well!!
Meet my own little bundle of JOY.
My baby girl, Rebecca Joy. HAHA. She's so adorable!! I absolutely love her! She's a small version of me haha. I can't stop looking at her!! She's my lovely angel!
This is my other bambina! She has stronger features but still very lovely!! The mother and the father have such good genes! haha. My mom thinks I am crazy for doing this but thing is, wala pa kasi akong naiisip na ibang guy haha. Next time na! when he eventually shows up in my life.
This is Sarah Elizabeth
I cannot help it, I just had to make them clothes in polyvore haha. She's going to be a fashionista! just like her mom. I love her to bits!!
set 3
set 3 by vitadelbella featuring GAP
set 2
set 2 by vitadelbella featuring GAP
What a better way to end it than this...
There's a dream of someone. without a face, without a name. yours truly, Lica Toledo Good night, everyone. igz oh igz oh(XOXO)

The Rain

no matter how beautiful the tiny droplets are, they just didn't do me any good today. I was supposed to leave in a few minutes for MC to meet up with Sarah and our former Journalism teacher, Ms. Elizabeth Ong. My friend wanted to pursue the publishing industry and create herself a new magazine fit for the market. I thought it was a good idea and so, I decided to help her out. Thing is, we're fresh out of college, all we have are great ideas, pulsating energy and the drive to excel. When it comes to money-making and the real deal business, the ideas go down the drain. We have no background whatsoever about Entrepreneurship. We NEEDED a mentor and that's where Ms. Ong comes in. We absolutely adore her and her love for writing. Gawd. She is SO brilliant. Instead of taking down notes from a lady extraordinaire, I am here at home, typing this. On the plus side, I was able to finish editing my tita's verbatim. My back hurts, when was the last time I actually did something productive? College? haha. College was 4 months ago! SHOOT, 4 MONTHS AGO!!! almost 5 months already!! okay, I am panicking and hyperventilating.
HELP! WORK WANTED.
How hard is it to get a job, anyway? I don't know if I am being TOO CHOOSY or TOO LAZY to even start looking for potential bosses out there. Getting a job should not be as hard as looking for a probable lover, right? Those are two completely different things. One should at least be easier than the other. I'd go for finding the "perfect" job! I don't need a love life. They make rainy days worse as you pine for such people while thinking if you're enough for them. So the drama. I shall resign at the thought of finding the perfect love and search for the ideal career instead.
THE SEARCH IS OVER Oh, when will it be?
Sarah and I were discussing how difficult and close to impossible, finding a suitable career is! It's like waiting for a broken traffic light to go green amidst intense traffic and heavy rainfall. There's a possibility that the traffic lights will be fixed and there's a probability that the traffic will disappear but the chances are minimal during an arduous cry of the heavens!! That's where I am in now! I am amidst a storm for crying out loud!! The Philippine typhoon does not compare to the flood that's sweeping my life. I guess hoping that the sun will soon shine is what keeps me going. Oh Lord, have mercy on me.
I DON'T KNOW HOW MUCH LONGER I CAN TAKE STAYING AT HOME. It's killing me. :( I can't take it anymore. :( I think it also has something to do with the fact that my emotional level and hormones are really high right now.I hate that time of the month.It takes away my peace and sanity.
HELP. I am so pissed off. Okay, it's the hormones.

Thursday, July 16, 2009

Half-way done

I just finished doing my tita's graphs for her study. Nahilo ako! I am not used to using Excel 2007. It took me 15 minutes to figure out the proper format, fonts and everything else. Wah. On to writing the verbatim! Shoot. Dami.
I made like 20 of those and still counting! -____-. Pero naawa naman ako sa kanya, she needed help. Good thing is, she'll be paying me for it! yey! but i am willing to do it naman without pay if ever...yes, feeling noble! haha! Must go on...

Strict Machine (We Are Glitter Goldfrapp Mix) - Goldfrapp I love this song, it sounds like Stripper by Soho dolls (Gossip Girl OST). I love Goldfrapp! Clubs music! Even though, I don't go clubbing haha.

Reaching out

Maybe this is one way I can reach out to people.
There are people on this planet whom only you will be able to reach, because of where you live and what God has made you to be. If just one person will be in heaven because of you, your life will have made a difference for eternity. The clock is ticking down on your life mission, so don't delay another day. Get started on your mission of reaching out to others now! We have all of eternity to celebrate with those we have brought to Jesus, but we only have our lifetime in which we reach them. "All of us must quickly carry out the tasks assigned us by the one who sent me, because there is little time left before the night falls and all work comes to an end." Matthewe 16:18 (TEV) If you fail to fulfill your God-given mission on earth, you will have wasted the life God gave you. Paul said, "My life is worth nothing unless I use it for doing the work assigned me by the Lord Jesus - the work of telling others the Good News about God's wonderful kindness and love." Acts 13:22 (NLT) If you want to be used by God, you must care about what God cares about; what he cares about most is the redemption of the people he made. He wants his lost children found! Nothing matters more to God; the Cross proves that. I pray that you will always be on the lookout to reach "one more for Jesus" so that when you stand before God one day, you can say, "Mission accomplished!"
(Rick Warren) If only people know how breathtaking the bible described heaven and how awesome it is to be reunited with our Father, I know people will immediately want to experience that second life. Revelation 4:2-8 (New International Version) 2At once I was in the Spirit, and there before me was a throne in heaven with someone sitting on it. 3And the one who sat there had the appearance of jasper and carnelian. A rainbow, resembling an emerald, encircled the throne. 4Surrounding the throne were twenty-four other thrones, and seated on them were twenty-four elders. They were dressed in white and had crowns of gold on their heads. 5From the throne came flashes of lightning, rumblings and peals of thunder. Before the throne, seven lamps were blazing. These are the seven spirits[a] of God. 6Also before the throne there was what looked like a sea of glass, clear as crystal. In the center, around the throne, were four living creatures, and they were covered with eyes, in front and in back. 7The first living creature was like a lion, the second was like an ox, the third had a face like a man, the fourth was like a flying eagle. 8Each of the four living creatures had six wings and was covered with eyes all around, even under his wings. Day and night they never stop saying: "Holy, holy, holy is the Lord God Almighty, who was, and is, and is to come." It's not just about heaven, it's also about having a real relationship with Him at present. God accepts everyone, no matter what your past is..or who you are at present. CCF Worship Services St. Francis Tiangge, Mandaluyong 5th Floor Auditorium 8:00-9:00 A.M. 10:00-11:30 A.M. 12:00-1:30 P.M. 3:00-5:00 P.M. (Filipino) 6:00-7:30 P.M. Youth Services JZONE (High School and College) Saturday 4:00 P.M. Thursday Night Devotionals (Singles) Thursday 7:30 P.M Nag-promote haha. If you're interested, let me know. What to expect... 1. There is no complicated liturgical program. Each worship service usually begins and ends with singing (we use contemporary music), with the Sunday message in between. Someone also comes up to tell people about how God has been working in their lives. That’s it. We focus less on rituals and more on learning about God’s Word – how to understand it, and how to apply it to your life. 2. There is no dress code, no need to feel self-conscious. Just come as you are. 3. You are not obliged to give to the church. We don’t even pass around collection baskets during the service, so nobody feels forced. God would rather that you were cheerful about it (2 Corinthians 9:7). When you do feel moved to give to the church, you’ll find a Tithes and Offerings box near each entrance. Or, you can give online. 4. Worshipers with special needs (e.g. in wheelchairs) have a reserved area in the Auditorium so that they can participate comfortably. Just ask an usher to show the way. 5. Parents with small infants have seats in the Infants’ Room on the fifth floor, where they can hear the word without worrying about disruptions. 6. We have different Sunday School classes for children of all ages. Toddlers have a safe place to play and learn on the fourth floor, while bigger kids will find their space on the third floor. 7. A qualified staff is standing by, should you need medical assistance during the Sunday activities. 8. We want you to feel at home, especially if you’re joining us for the first time. Come to CCF on Sunday, meet new people, and don’t be afraid to ask questions. We actually welcome them, just like we welcome you. After the service, you can go to the Mini-Theater on the fifth floor to ask for answers, prayer, and counseling. See you around! http://ccf.org.ph
You have NOTHING to lose but EVERYTHING to gain.

Good morning

I know it. I blog too much! morning..midday...evening! patay. My excuse : it enhances my writing skills haha! I have so much to say all the time. Minsan mahirap maghanap ng kausap na matino..ito na lang haha. Gloomy morning music = Joshua Radin. Yey! Rain! rain!

Today - Joshua Radin 2 things I am looking forward today: 1)Bonding lunch with mom. I wonder what we'll be talking about this time. She has an early meeting with a lady next door, I guess binebentahan nanaman niya ng insurance, as usual. I don't think I will excel in that field, I don't have the guts to go out of my way and approach people to ask if they want to avail life insurance. I don't want to engage myself in a job where rejection is most likely to happen. HAHA. Pride, baby, pride. I need to do away with it. After which, we leave for Libis to eat lunch. 2)My dad's leading the devotional later in their bible study! They invited me to go with them...their d-group leader also wished me to be there.I am really excited for my dad! This will be a huge milestone in his life. I really hope this will continue on and not just tonight. I'll be writing notes later so that I can post his message here. Stage daughter haha. I am just so proud of him! I hope he knows that. I love you, dad! You make me so grateful to have you as my papa.
It's raining! Rain + a cup of Starbucks Cappuccino = Relaxation. I want one now.
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One more thing, I no longer want this whole charade I am doing. I don't want to start pretending again. Why can't people get it when I don't want to talk to them? I just want to be at peace without you, for a time...I cannot let you hurt me again, sorry. Not now, not ever.