Thursday, July 16, 2009

Half-way done

I just finished doing my tita's graphs for her study. Nahilo ako! I am not used to using Excel 2007. It took me 15 minutes to figure out the proper format, fonts and everything else. Wah. On to writing the verbatim! Shoot. Dami.
I made like 20 of those and still counting! -____-. Pero naawa naman ako sa kanya, she needed help. Good thing is, she'll be paying me for it! yey! but i am willing to do it naman without pay if ever...yes, feeling noble! haha! Must go on...

Strict Machine (We Are Glitter Goldfrapp Mix) - Goldfrapp I love this song, it sounds like Stripper by Soho dolls (Gossip Girl OST). I love Goldfrapp! Clubs music! Even though, I don't go clubbing haha.

Reaching out

Maybe this is one way I can reach out to people.
There are people on this planet whom only you will be able to reach, because of where you live and what God has made you to be. If just one person will be in heaven because of you, your life will have made a difference for eternity. The clock is ticking down on your life mission, so don't delay another day. Get started on your mission of reaching out to others now! We have all of eternity to celebrate with those we have brought to Jesus, but we only have our lifetime in which we reach them. "All of us must quickly carry out the tasks assigned us by the one who sent me, because there is little time left before the night falls and all work comes to an end." Matthewe 16:18 (TEV) If you fail to fulfill your God-given mission on earth, you will have wasted the life God gave you. Paul said, "My life is worth nothing unless I use it for doing the work assigned me by the Lord Jesus - the work of telling others the Good News about God's wonderful kindness and love." Acts 13:22 (NLT) If you want to be used by God, you must care about what God cares about; what he cares about most is the redemption of the people he made. He wants his lost children found! Nothing matters more to God; the Cross proves that. I pray that you will always be on the lookout to reach "one more for Jesus" so that when you stand before God one day, you can say, "Mission accomplished!"
(Rick Warren) If only people know how breathtaking the bible described heaven and how awesome it is to be reunited with our Father, I know people will immediately want to experience that second life. Revelation 4:2-8 (New International Version) 2At once I was in the Spirit, and there before me was a throne in heaven with someone sitting on it. 3And the one who sat there had the appearance of jasper and carnelian. A rainbow, resembling an emerald, encircled the throne. 4Surrounding the throne were twenty-four other thrones, and seated on them were twenty-four elders. They were dressed in white and had crowns of gold on their heads. 5From the throne came flashes of lightning, rumblings and peals of thunder. Before the throne, seven lamps were blazing. These are the seven spirits[a] of God. 6Also before the throne there was what looked like a sea of glass, clear as crystal. In the center, around the throne, were four living creatures, and they were covered with eyes, in front and in back. 7The first living creature was like a lion, the second was like an ox, the third had a face like a man, the fourth was like a flying eagle. 8Each of the four living creatures had six wings and was covered with eyes all around, even under his wings. Day and night they never stop saying: "Holy, holy, holy is the Lord God Almighty, who was, and is, and is to come." It's not just about heaven, it's also about having a real relationship with Him at present. God accepts everyone, no matter what your past is..or who you are at present. CCF Worship Services St. Francis Tiangge, Mandaluyong 5th Floor Auditorium 8:00-9:00 A.M. 10:00-11:30 A.M. 12:00-1:30 P.M. 3:00-5:00 P.M. (Filipino) 6:00-7:30 P.M. Youth Services JZONE (High School and College) Saturday 4:00 P.M. Thursday Night Devotionals (Singles) Thursday 7:30 P.M Nag-promote haha. If you're interested, let me know. What to expect... 1. There is no complicated liturgical program. Each worship service usually begins and ends with singing (we use contemporary music), with the Sunday message in between. Someone also comes up to tell people about how God has been working in their lives. That’s it. We focus less on rituals and more on learning about God’s Word – how to understand it, and how to apply it to your life. 2. There is no dress code, no need to feel self-conscious. Just come as you are. 3. You are not obliged to give to the church. We don’t even pass around collection baskets during the service, so nobody feels forced. God would rather that you were cheerful about it (2 Corinthians 9:7). When you do feel moved to give to the church, you’ll find a Tithes and Offerings box near each entrance. Or, you can give online. 4. Worshipers with special needs (e.g. in wheelchairs) have a reserved area in the Auditorium so that they can participate comfortably. Just ask an usher to show the way. 5. Parents with small infants have seats in the Infants’ Room on the fifth floor, where they can hear the word without worrying about disruptions. 6. We have different Sunday School classes for children of all ages. Toddlers have a safe place to play and learn on the fourth floor, while bigger kids will find their space on the third floor. 7. A qualified staff is standing by, should you need medical assistance during the Sunday activities. 8. We want you to feel at home, especially if you’re joining us for the first time. Come to CCF on Sunday, meet new people, and don’t be afraid to ask questions. We actually welcome them, just like we welcome you. After the service, you can go to the Mini-Theater on the fifth floor to ask for answers, prayer, and counseling. See you around! http://ccf.org.ph
You have NOTHING to lose but EVERYTHING to gain.

Good morning

I know it. I blog too much! morning..midday...evening! patay. My excuse : it enhances my writing skills haha! I have so much to say all the time. Minsan mahirap maghanap ng kausap na matino..ito na lang haha. Gloomy morning music = Joshua Radin. Yey! Rain! rain!

Today - Joshua Radin 2 things I am looking forward today: 1)Bonding lunch with mom. I wonder what we'll be talking about this time. She has an early meeting with a lady next door, I guess binebentahan nanaman niya ng insurance, as usual. I don't think I will excel in that field, I don't have the guts to go out of my way and approach people to ask if they want to avail life insurance. I don't want to engage myself in a job where rejection is most likely to happen. HAHA. Pride, baby, pride. I need to do away with it. After which, we leave for Libis to eat lunch. 2)My dad's leading the devotional later in their bible study! They invited me to go with them...their d-group leader also wished me to be there.I am really excited for my dad! This will be a huge milestone in his life. I really hope this will continue on and not just tonight. I'll be writing notes later so that I can post his message here. Stage daughter haha. I am just so proud of him! I hope he knows that. I love you, dad! You make me so grateful to have you as my papa.
It's raining! Rain + a cup of Starbucks Cappuccino = Relaxation. I want one now.
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One more thing, I no longer want this whole charade I am doing. I don't want to start pretending again. Why can't people get it when I don't want to talk to them? I just want to be at peace without you, for a time...I cannot let you hurt me again, sorry. Not now, not ever.

Wednesday, July 15, 2009

God's power in our weakness

I know I should be sleeping but my daily devotional struck me that I just had to note it down before I start forgetting my realizations. Not that I will but I am just so inspired to write about it. These statements came to life in the pages of my book,“At some point in your life you must decide whether you want to impress people or influence people. Pretentiousness repels but authenticity attracts, and vulnerability is the pathway to intimacy.” For the past years of my life, I have been carrying two personalities and did not know about it. I was either this timid obedient girl or a girl struggling with rebellion inside her heart. I knew I should be neither. God created me with a passion to share about Him and make my life a living testimony of His goodness, both of which I was rarely successful. I recall a friend referring to another friend as someone who lacked personality. Ina (not her real name) told us that Rachel (not her real name) only mimicked the cool personalities of everyone around her, she had no originality, she does not even know who she really is. Sad thing is, I agreed with her full well only to realize that I also saw myself in Rachel’s shoes. I had no originality. Although college has gotten the best of me, it has also brought out the worst in me. I did not stand my ground. I was so scared of my weaknesses that I tried to hide myself in my friends’ worldly lifestyles just to consider myself as someone who belonged to a crowd. I was so scare of being left out to the point that I no longer knew who I was. I am far from perfect and that's how I will always be and I have to accept that. I will never gain everyone’s acceptance and good favor. As a Christian, I know that I will be among those who are banished at the city gates and labeled as those who live bland lives. Knowing such truth, I got so petrified just thinking about it. How can I survive a boring life? I want action, I want the thrill! I only get to live once. My personality is already tasteless and for that, I cannot take living a nondescript life as well! That’s just too much to ask. But this is who I am. This is who I chose to be the moment I accepted Christ into my life. If I choose spice over butter, that will be like a slap on my Savior’s face. Dilemma. I’m just a kid, am I not supposed to enjoy life? I was then reminded of what our pastor told us last Sunday. ”These things can rob you. I want to speak to all the young people this morning here. Don’t believe the lie of the Devil that says, if you come to Christ you’re not going to have fun anymore, that the Lord wants to rob you of your fun. You’re going to experience more joy and more peace and more hope and more direction in your life than anything else you could possibly imagine. If you surrender your life to Jesus Christ, he has an adventure for your life that you could have never imagined in your entire life. Don’t allow sin to rob you of that experience with the Lord.” Our version of fun is different. I guess if people cannot accept that then I am not going to change who I am just to fit other people’s standards. It’s really difficult to accept this. I have been a person who enjoys comparing myself to others. It’s my version of masochism. Night after night, I couldn’t help but cry out to God why He has not blessed me with a job yet only to realize that He has other plans for me. You see, this world has truly distorted our perspective and making us think that success, prestige, popularity and money is the most important thing. But the bible begs to differ. Jesus is the first and only thing that matters in this temporary journey. I know this will make me so weird in other people's eyes. But hey, I choose LOVE over popularity and to influence than to impress. If only other people knew how utterly inexplainable having Him in our lives is. I now bask in the presence of my Maker, I have strayed away for too long again.

I want.

This will match my PPPP-oker Face. Good night everyone.